Reluctance

you are the embodiment
of arrogance
cold, unfeeling, darkness

i challenge you
in my subtle way
scream at you
in the recesses of my mind

you hide in darkness
you slither back to your comfort
fiery dankness

though i've not won and won't
whilst you hold the puppet strings
sorcerer, you still remain
my inspiration, my muse

somehow captured a piece of me
and your spell won't let go
tied, entwined, can't let go, forever

i read of the past and i weep
whilst i dream romanticized visions
of what might have been
and mayhap never shall be

but no matter my soul's cost
no matter my heart's time
always i return in my mind

to forget would be divine and terrible
moving on a blessing, yet a sin
and still, across all the sands of time
you merely have but to call

'tis as if some sorcery has bound me
fettered and chained still at that altar
straining against invisible bonds

your call trumpets across time and space
i hear it whether you intend or no
our souls are welded somehow
not something i want, but something i know