Numb

Everything is so simple in the dark,
when I'm banging my head rhythmically
against a cold concrete wall,
and it doesn't even hurt anymore
that you abandoned me and are gone.
And I'm numb to all feeling
and can't feel the pain
of a love that was there, embraced
yet I pushed it away;
of a love that wasn't, won't be
yet haunts me still anyway;
of a love that I asked for, wished for
yet in the light it went away.
And in the darkness I sit here alone
bruises all over a body battered and worn,
invisible to the eye, yet they exist.
And still here I sit, rocking and cold,
skull a battering ram against unyielding stone.