Archived Work 3

Questions (from approx '96)

Will the chains never be broken?
Will the bonds that bind never break?
Will slavery never be ended?
Will dawn ever mean a new day?

When will we ever learn?
When will we find truth?
When will we find justice?
When will mankind be free?

Why must the world hate so much?
Why must the world enslave?
Why does nobody open their eyes?
Why do they not see the suffering?

What will be the day of freedom?
What will be the day of justice?
What is the destiny of our brothers?
What is the destiny of ourselves?

Archived Work 2

Why? (from approx '95-'96)

A knife enters my heart
and as it twists deeper
the pain, the torment, and the agony
force me to ask why.
I want to cry out,
but no one listens.
I try to find a soul mate,
but no one is there.
The questions are never-ending;
they hound my soul.
Day and night I am forced
to face the loneliness
that accompanies my life.
So I put on a smile,
and pretend to be carefree,
but the hole inside of me
will never close.
The pain inside of me
will never ease.
And the questions,
the questions will never end.
They will never go away.

Archived Work 1

Torment (from approx '95-'96)

Questions running round my mind;
The answers are so hard to find;
There is so much on the line...
For me.
It may seem very foolish to you,
But my life is so confusing.
The answers are just out of reach.
In front of my eyes dancing;
Laughing...
Is just a front I put on.
It seems to lift my heart,
But it just keeps away the tears;
Sorrow...
I feel every day,
I put on a smile and face the world,
But the tears are so real.
Hide the confusion;
Sorrow;
Pain;
Smile through the tears.
The questions remain unanswered.

My thoughts flow like water,
droplets spattering across the page.
Scribbles arranged into recognizable patterns.
Letters and words that mean everything,
and yet nothing.

I've been too good for too long.
Wasted years being who they wanted,
spent too much time allowing others to define me.
Finally, I define myself.

I live in a world where fantasy invades reality,
reality invades fantasy.
Demons, nymphs and faeiries,
concrete jungle and steel girders.
I question my reality,
I question my fantasy,
I question my sanity.

I crave...I crave...
what?
My master, my lover,
my king, my only equal.
Twin of my soul,
The face of my dreams.

Mist and Shadows

Etherial, she stands alone.
Clothed in mist and shadows,
she dances as she walks.
Lightly twirling, her arms flung outwards,
she embraces the chill night air
yet craves the fire of the sun.
She haunts my waking and sleeping dreams,
I see her always in my mind's eye.
She stands surrounded by forest,
gown of gauzy mist rippling gently about her,
hair blowing about her face.
Visible but invisible, always obscured and hazy.
Who is she, this daimone or fairie,
and why does she haunt me so?
What does she want from me?
Will she ever leave me alone?

Seduction

He comes to me in the guise of my most secret desires.
Undoubtably male, he oozes danger, rawness and sensuality.
He tempts me, seduces my thoughts, becomes an obsession;
he is but a dream and yet his power transfixes.
Like a moth I am drawn to his fiery nature,
flirting with potential disaster.
My strength, normally as marble pillars standing forever,
fails me and I crumble before him.
I ache to be possessed, even at the cost of my soul.
Something stirs within me, awakening at my core,
responding to the darkness to which he has retired.
I yearn for the ecstacy of his electric touch,
for the pain that will replace ecstacy when bliss retreats.
But for all his power, for all his strength,
will he ever comprehend the twin of his nature?
Seduction, after all, takes two.

A Moment in Time

Touch me, caress me,
Undress me with your eyes.
Blue pools of depth...
I'm falling, I'm lost...
Peel away the layers
once painstakingly erected.
With only a sweeping glance,
You shoot to my core;
I feel naked before you.
In my mind I imagine
The graze of your fingertips,
Your breath on my neck,
Lips pressed against mine,
Our fingers entwined.
For a moment I'm lost.
I'm trapped by your gaze.
And then you blink,
Reality snaps back into focus.